In honor of Rob's first day of work as CEO of Prime Focus Post Production North America, I spent the day focusing on focusing. He left at 6:30 am, and that gave me an early start. My day began, as usual, out of focus, as I reached for my glasses. I decided to focus on what I was grateful for. Grateful for God. For Rob. And the girls. For family and friends and friends that have become family. For Rob's new job opportunity. For his previous job opportunity. And especially for the eight months of steady work in between - almost all of it unpaid. Working on the two houses, working on getting both nieces and their resumes ready for prime time, working at church, working on an entrepreneurial idea, working on family videos, working with Dr. Kitatani's college class, working on two Academy presentations, working on finding work. It's been a deeply rich and fulfilling thing to witness, and I am perhaps even more proud of the work that Rob does in the off times than in the on.
I then focused on the spiritual bedrock of the above, notably his favorite phrase from the Bible, "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding." I actually have admitted to being tired of hearing that passage, but I'm never tired of seeing it in action, in all its glorious splendor. Maybe in this economy it's even easier to trust like that, since the other normal supports have all been pulled out. Easier to trust, when one's own understanding doesn't really have anything meaningful to offer up.
Next I focused on what would try to keep me from being focused. All I wanted that day was to be a support, so it's no real shocker to me that things would appear to undermine my strength, my optimism, my clarity, my goodwill. Ah, but the focus was in full force, working on me. The focus was digging in its heels and wasn't giving in to any opposition. The focus started to seem like the eye test where I'm asked, "Which looks better? Number One? or Two?" and I guess I answered correctly because eventually every direction I looked seemed to be an unobstructed view.
I suppose that some people like it fuzzy. When you're in focus, you're not only seeing the good stuff clearly, but you're seeing the ugly stuff too. But maybe the world needs us to focus on the ugly stuff so we can finally clean it up.
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